It appears I have limits....

Superwoman here posting on Ashley's behalf. Why isn't Ashley free to post her own blog entry? Possibly because she's huddled in a corner crying.

It seems that she has reached the end of her rope. So what happens now that her rope has run out? Well, she lets go, she falls about 40 feet and gets knocked unconscious, then she finally catches up on all the rest she missed and wakes up just fine and dandy!

See, the thing is, Ashley has this complex where she feels the need to be a superhero for everyone around her. She must always be strong when they're having problems, and always bright and chipper when they're trying to have fun. But the problem is that Ashley is far from a superhero (and I would know). She has problems of her own, lots of them. She also has work and assignments that she worries about. She has rough days too and believe it or not she even needs sleep once in a while (who would have thought).

But apparently she doesn't really get the concept of her own humanity. She knows it, but she doesn't really GET it. She continues to make her world revolve around everyone else until she becomes so exhausted that she spends five hours in her room crying. Then she sleeps it off and starts the cycle all over again.
Even now she's muttering under her breath that everyone has problems and that obsessively helping others seems like a damn good one to have. Someone needs to smack her. Seriously. She's just going to keep doing it and she knows it.

Also, it's mildly masochistic the way she finds some way to throw herself in front of a bus for someone every single day. Figuratively of course, but don't doubt that she really would throw herself in front of an actual bus (and buses here don't stop). I suspect though that a real bus would do less damage than these imaginary ones...

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Love you all, I'm going to go pack my bags for my class trip and see if I can make it through tonight in a mildly sane mood. Schizophrenia aside I seem to be recovering well from my nervous breakdown of 4 days ago.